Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.
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Pine cones and pastries
The forest is my fatherWhere we walkAnd he taught meOf his FatherThe peace and the beautyReflected for usAs His cathedralWe pray as we walkTogether and aloneBut not really alone Like him I come to communeWith the world and with GodTo give up my problems To focus on the detailsAnd the big picture The distractions of life fadedThrough…
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Ohrid
The tall mountains of Macedonia are rolling stubbornly in the clouds. There’s a blue haze of heat and humidity layering the peaks, in darker and lighter shades. We left Ohrid. Jackie is sleeping, dreaming of hugs and laughter. She has adopted an army of aunts and uncles. She has had memorable connections and conversations, has…
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Not my merit
Is it the merit of the child who asks or the parent who gives? When we pray and God answers, how powerful do we feel? We take comfort in the fact that the Creator of the Universe is our Father, so generous, quick to forgive and slow to anger, so very loving… but it’s not…
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Bethel
We all survived a week of flexible schedule. Nothing started or ended on time. We went with the flow. The pullbacks were gentle and could have driven some timely, organized people crazy. It’s odd that an entire group of 40 adult didn’t bring forth at least one people to react negatively to this extraordinary lack…
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Window into my prayer room
Blue ripples As I glide weightless through the waterI reach the end of myself And I know not what else to doBut let go. My eloquence and persuasion are useless I feel broken. I cry to GodAnd he meets me thereIn the perfect waterI ask God to reach my brother’s heart To wake him up To meet himLet him see…
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Reconciliation
The positive heartIn absence of anotherRemembers and feeds on the good My brother. Your servant heartYour quiet demeanor Not once have I doubted your love And yet. Conflicting signals You hurt.And I don’t understand. Coming homeI sense it’s worse than I thought As I put my self aside I see clearer. I start praying For healingFor understanding For peace Then I am moved With…
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God, don’t waste my gifts
Don’t leave me stuck in my head. In my discouragement. In my depression. Pull me out by my arm. Throw me back into life. Point me into Your direction. CS Lewis observed that war, famine & death ultimately brought out the best in people. Before I knew of this author, I had also instinctively detached…
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About mom
Studying Jacob’s life this last week, we first looked at the father perspective. The next day, we studied then introspected about our own mothers. We were asked with clever insight, to name the first three words that describe our dad, or mom, and three words that describe our relationship with them. These words were our…
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What do you want God to do for you?
Such a daring question. A good one, no less. We tend to dream small based on our fears and memory of selfishness. Until we are honest enough to even admit our own wild dreams, we cannot even confront them with God. So we remain small. In stature and accomplishments. What do I want God to…
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My dad
We spent the week at Lacu Rosu in the mountains, in fellowship and studying the life of Jacob. This year did not unfold as we anticipated. We were thinking we would embark early on, on the adoption adventure, being drawn body and soul to the-grafting-of-lives process. God had other plans. We left behind computers and…
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Optimism & Altruism
Two essential qualities in parenting. We come into marriage with an average dose of altruism. Whatever we’ve witnessed growing up, and how we’ve been challenged to get involved in the family life or in our community. Self-sacrifice gives forth its fruit over time, so it has nothing to do with instant gratification. Unless we got…
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Mă frământă…
Așteptăm. Așteptam de un an si jumate. Dupa un sistem care merge parca inapoi. Iar legea este doar parțial puternica sau de folos. Neinformați, dezinformați. S-au simplificat legile si s-a scurtat teoretic timpul de asteptare, pentru parinti si copii, însă in realitate toate lucrurile se desfășoară mai greoi parca. Toate astea in contextul in care…
