Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.
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The lightness of a free conscience
Two weeks ago I was buying just a few items at the grocery store: bread milk and some vitamin water for the road-trip. As I was waiting for the clerk to confirm that I am an adult for the energy drink I got for conrad (as he sometimes needs a little pick me up after…
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Motivation
We can do hard things propelled by motivation. Sometimes we assume our motivation is shared by all. But that is definitely not true. Take for example a job. Some prefer a high paying job that comes with a lot of stress. Others prefer flexibility at a lower pay. Some want routine, security, steady income and…
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Ne întoarcem mereu la conectare
Ii dau drumul liber și cu toată inima, cu încurajare si binecuvântare. Fiica mea cea mare care cred eu ca ma simte, ca o privesc cu încântare si cu admirație. Devine. Ridica fruntea sus, își înfruntă cu eleganță si seninătate si demonii si fricile. Râde de ei și pășește dincolo. A fost un timp când…
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Off the mountain, back from the coast
Returning to day to day life, to reality – it is hard no matter the age. Kids don’t have the practice of it, though their reality is social and still fun. Not too much pressure – except school and grades and peers. Ivy did not wake up happy. On the contrary. Down turned lip, quivering.…
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Adevărul
In ultimile săptămâni am fost întâmpinată cu câteva minciuni gratis de la J. Minciuni spuse parca pentru practică. Poate astea ma deranjează ce mai tare. Citesc printre rânduri, prin pupilele dilatate, si îmi pare rău sa vad cum se știrbește încet încet încrederea mea in hotărârea fetelor mele de a spune adevarul. O întreb pe…
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Ai încredere în mine?
Zilele astea iar au ieșit scântei din neînțelegeri. Decizii luate în pripă, decizii contra sfaturilor mele, testarea de libertăți și oportunități. După o seară în care ar fi putut demonstra ca sunt responsabile, să închidă televizorul la 9 și să meargă să se spele pe dinți, fetele au mai început un film și au mâncat…
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Misguided self-sacrificial parenting
When we teach our kids that they can do hard things, we gift them the best inheritance that will build their future. When the stakes are low enough, discomfort is manageable, the loss is insignificant compared to the gain of experience. I listen to the challenges of ivy’s classmates’ parents. The circumstances pull us into…
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Naive
When I met Brian, he asked me about my storyI was embarrassed because I had nothing interesting to sayNo drama. I thought I had watched too much TV as a kid. I thought of the church leader hosting Jesus for a mealAnd the woman who barged inand washed Jesus’ feet with her tears and wiped…
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Forgetfulness
Out of fearful brain, I easily forget to do this or that. I interrupt my own train of thought to do something that crosses my mind. I got to accomplish lots this way. I was so efficient. But my short term memory, treaded with fear, it started to fail me. Seriously fail me. I would…
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Beginning of 2025 school year
When it rains it pours. I dive head first into the crashing waves and I take it all in, embracing the challenge. With the new schedule one kid in the morning the other one in the afternoon at school, I had to adapt to their medical appointments and do them in different days even if…
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Impact
“Do not consider yourself wise. Fear the lord and stay away from evil paths.” That was week 2 for my week in the Proverbs with Brian & Michelle. I admire the humility with which this wide group of accomplished people present themselves. They are quick to acknowledge their shortcomings and where they feel they came…
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Proverbs class week3
Let thy words be like an alpine stream – refreshing, clear, satisfying Not a cascade of volume and noise – murky, forceful, repelling I had a brief season of logorrhea — from the greek logos (word) + rhoia (flow)When my older brother told me I talk too much. First, out of stubbornness & to prove a point I…
