Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.
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Misguided self-sacrificial parenting
When we teach our kids that they can do hard things, we gift them the best inheritance that will build their future. When the stakes are low enough, discomfort is manageable, the loss is insignificant compared to the gain of experience. I listen to the challenges of ivy’s classmates’ parents. The circumstances pull us into…
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Naive
When I met Brian, he asked me about my storyI was embarrassed because I had nothing interesting to sayNo drama. I thought I had watched too much TV as a kid. I thought of the church leader hosting Jesus for a mealAnd the woman who barged inand washed Jesus’ feet with her tears and wiped…
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Forgetfulness
Out of fearful brain, I easily forget to do this or that. I interrupt my own train of thought to do something that crosses my mind. I got to accomplish lots this way. I was so efficient. But my short term memory, treaded with fear, it started to fail me. Seriously fail me. I would…
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Beginning of 2025 school year
When it rains it pours. I dive head first into the crashing waves and I take it all in, embracing the challenge. With the new schedule one kid in the morning the other one in the afternoon at school, I had to adapt to their medical appointments and do them in different days even if…
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Impact
“Do not consider yourself wise. Fear the lord and stay away from evil paths.” That was week 2 for my week in the Proverbs with Brian & Michelle. I admire the humility with which this wide group of accomplished people present themselves. They are quick to acknowledge their shortcomings and where they feel they came…
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Proverbs class week3
Let thy words be like an alpine stream – refreshing, clear, satisfying Not a cascade of volume and noise – murky, forceful, repelling I had a brief season of logorrhea — from the greek logos (word) + rhoia (flow)When my older brother told me I talk too much. First, out of stubbornness & to prove a point I…
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Discomfort
I had a difficult repeat conversation with my husband, and as he said he appreciated my accompanying words of affirmation, he felt like he was on a job yearly review and it was difficult to hear. Even though he is such a graceful feedback receiver, and attentive and patient and humble, I bet it was…
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Oasis among friends
In MomCo the official volunteers are all from different churches. We are not afraid to stand alone. We probably seek paths to forge alone and come together bringing our unique gifts and perspectives. I fit right in as an outsider, in a group of outliers. A large group of women, no two from the same…
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Trying to understand
It’s a trap. A trap of the mind. I’ve been in this labyrinth for some time now, more than I wished to be, and I realize I haven’t figured out fully or clearly why I feel a certain way. Until I let go of wanting to grasp the knowledge. The understanding. To have it all…
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Mind buzz
So many trains of thought rushing through my mind. A constant buzz. Overlapping. Competing. I know the joy of peace through meditation – not easily attained. As a kind when praying my mind would easily wanter and I would struggle to bring it back into the one activity of prayer. Little did I know that…
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Introvert
Vorbitul in fațăIeșitul in evidențaActivitatea social mediaNu imi vin naturalNu ma incarc prin ele,Ci depun un efort sa activez Tocmai din dorința de a învingeFrica, rușinea, timiditateaAm iesit din zona de confortDes si devremeDar acum e vremea de a sta puțin in umbraSa imi incarc bateriile. Am nevoie sa ma întreb sincerCe imi stârnește un…
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Conectare
Ca un elastic puternic care se poate întindeCând ne certam, când avem opinii puternice diferiteSa avem încredere ca nu se rupe elasticulSa avem curaj sa ținem strâns de elSa nu dam drumul înainte sa ne onoram punctul de vedereAcolo cred eu ca găsim odihna in relațiiCând avem încredere in noi si in celălaltSi vorbim onestChiar…
