Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.
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Scrambled brain
I heard a writer say to channel all the strong emotions in order to write. Frustration, fear, love, hope, joy… what about the mental exhaustion? It’s not writers’ block. Is lack of coherence. I never thought I could be this tired. After I put dinner on the table, and the girls relate to me as…
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We stay up late
After we put the girls to bed, we veg is silence. Or conrad reads me a book. Or we watch a show. We’ve wasted a few good hours down the rabbit whole of the internets, but we went to bed more tired than we needed to be. And more disconnected from each other. So we…
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Court date
Tuesday I say yes in front of a judge. We are adopting our youngest daughter and changing her name. Evelyn Rayne. “Beloved daughter, Song of the Lord.” After the first week of school and kindergarten, finding a rhythm, has been a welcomed change. Evelyn cried every day about not wanting to go to kindergarten. Discreetly…
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Prima săptămână de școală
De jumatate de an suntem pe acasă. Ne place sa călătorim, să ieșim din familiar, să ne aventuram în natură, în lume. Anul acessta a fost un exercițiu de răbdare, de rezistență, de perseverență și de credință. Cu emoție și bucurie ne-am trezit devreme luni dimineața. Pentru Evelyn. Care abia aștepta grădinița, locul acela magic…
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What I pray for
Our new godchildren, whose marriage we witnessed this month. May God watch over them, strengthen their love and connection. May he braid into their marriage grace, patience, a servant heart. I pray for the two foster families that took care of my daughters. Who served so generously, who loved wholeheartedly. May they be refreshed, encouraged,…
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Foțu Feț – wash your hands
Dear Evelyn, Your sense of humor is becoming not just more apparent, but you are actually funny to me. You are a grumpy cat, when you want to. It doesn’t last long. Less than a minute. But you know how to show your disapproval of our choice of words, guidance or correction. I love how…
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Evelyn’s first day of kindergarten
J: How was your first day of kindergarten? Did you cry for Mami?E: Just a little bit in the morning. A boy cried all day. I told him his mami is coming soon. J: What did you learn?E: Nothing. I just played. J: Did you make any friends? What are they called?E: Ummm… colleagues. E:…
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Două surori acasă
Într-o săptămână avem noul certificat de naștere. Din aproape în aproape, mai adăugăm câte zece zile la finalizarea adopției. De la cererea de încuviințare a adopției, la decizia judecătorului trimisă prin poștă, la alte zece zile “drept de apel”. Apoi cererea de definitivare a deciziei, așteptarea formalităților ca apoi să ridicăm decizia definitivă și irevocabilă,…
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Anxiety
The best parenting is done through prayer. in a few days both my girls are starting school. If we cover our eyes and ears completely we remain uninformed and vulnerable and ignorant. If we listen too much to what everyone is saying, we are in danger of losing heart. Yesterday was a hard day. I…
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Decisions
It was almost easier when everyone was ordered to follow the same rules. The uncertainty and confusion at every level is mentally exhausting. 25 out of 27 parents attended the parent-teacher conference for the beginning of the school year. Our 3 year old kids are entering the the kindergarten system and it is terrifying. Our…
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Lessons
Some things need to be learned the hard way… even if it’s not really that hard. We told Ivy to put covered shoes on, just in case she want to ride her bike. She politely declined. Nope. She was certain she won’t ride her bike. “At all!” Even Jackie tried to persuade her, as she…
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“That’s not true!”
Miss candor here, Jaclyn “Speak-her-mind” Altmann, contradicted me when I told the bride at her wedding that she was happy to attend her bridal shower. She said outright: “it was so boring, I didn’t enjoy it.” Well, it was a zoom party for a bride to be. Neither girl had ever attended a themed party,…
