Category: Memories
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O frustrare ridicolă și repetitivă
Dimineață iau micul dejun cu Ivy. Îi pregătesc gustarea pentru școală cat ea își termină cerealele. O duc la școală împreună cu alți trei vecini care merg la aceeași școală. Ea în fața. Povestim despre toate. Le răspund la întrebări. O iau la 12 de la școală, împreună cu ceilalți vecini. La întoarcere procesează cu…
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Paying attention / Active listening
“She doesn’t seem to be interested in what I have to say.” Humans are self-centered and insecure. Some grow out of it. Most don’t. Jackie was telling me how some adults don’t pay attention. I am sure that she has been spoilt for choice and has had many adults hang on every word and engage…
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First birthday of the year
In the year of AI and other algorithms taking over social media, I don’t want to post any memento of my daughter’s birthday, but I want to comemorate it in writing. I seem to have misplaced my purple leather diary, so I will reflect here on a few thoughts about celebrating birthdays. I am not…
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Friendship with adult siblings
As a mom I have intervened with logic between the occasional small sisterly quarrels. For the most part they have been pretty easy in showing kindness and grace and respect to each other. We may have modeled it, we may have encouraged it with words, we mau have prayed for it. But it’s not a…
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Forgetfulness
Out of fearful brain, I easily forget to do this or that. I interrupt my own train of thought to do something that crosses my mind. I got to accomplish lots this way. I was so efficient. But my short term memory, treaded with fear, it started to fail me. Seriously fail me. I would…
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To honor my instinct
Listen well. Take action. Respect my intuition. So it will continue to speak clearly So I could hear itSo it can steer me clear of dangerous paths This is the hardest. To believe that what I want is important. This is an ache I carry from the time I was my kids’ current age. Though I was most…
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Perspective
Pe site-ul copii.gov.ro sunt povești emoționate și reale și încurajatoare despre adopție. Majoritatea scrise în primii ani, poveștile încă proaspete, și în mod evident romantice. Dar după o vreme, chiar cu cele mai bune intenții, subiectul adopției se prăfuiește. Obosim de atâta atenție, de povara de a fi diferit, și vrem să ne ascundem, să…
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Comparison
I always believed that my self-sufficiency was rooted in my introversion. I didn’t need others to feel at ease, whole, happy. It may have had something to do with my dedication to God, no matter what, when I was 12. I had become aware of my complete and utter need for Him, based on everything…
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Ioana
I regard you with envy and admiration.A decision that was fraught over.Not easy. But necessary.Closing a chapter. Making a clean cut.I appreciate your declared availabilityBut it’s not necessary.I worry for that phrase. The open door.Hopefully we won’t abuse it.Maybe you’ve tested the waters of absence,letting us go. Slowly over time.We’ll make do.I want to bless…
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Words have power
I remembered, I felt how powerful a positive word spoken clearly in my mind can be.When have I stopped doing that? Why? I have lived in a fog. Dense. Sticky with sadness, tiredness. Then after clearing the film of silence off the topI could breath againAnd hearI listened to barely whispered questionsAnd received an answer.Not…
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The fog has lifted
My own emotionsOut of my control.The emotions are not to be fabricatedBut observed,Processed and embraced.I want to feel brave and kind and generousI want to serve with endless energy But I am a limited human.And that is ok. After a few weeks of unhealthy airThere was a fog of pollutionAnd heavy still airFinally the wind…