Category: Spiritual
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Traveling through layers of depression
I have traveled Through post adoption depression Gently and kindly kept safe By poetry and psalms. High highs and low lows Furry and numbness I have traveled through seasonal depression The never ending cold The wet and dreary weather Safely embraced and soothed by the listening ears I have traveled through pandemic depression Not alone …
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Time stands still
After a delicious lunch (pasta penner with ham, broccoli and white sauce) we had ice cream on the patio. It was peaceful. It was warm. And we acknowledged the blessing and the joy of the moment. It has been a long time since I felt this way. And my heart burst with gratitude. In the…
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Anxiety makes poor decisions
Acting out of fear, concern, worry, it’s not my comfort zone. It dawned on me that I have experienced a slew of unflattering yet real feelings. My emotional radar was being jammed by white noise. From outside and inside. I finally made the last payment on the house and a fog was lifted. Or better…
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Psalm 104
I loved Psalm 104. I loved all the psalms of praise. Who knew there is so much depth in joy and gratitude and exaltation. Psalm 104 fed me. Grounded me. The imagery, the simplicity and depth of truth exposed. I look at a beautiful grey sky as I write. The sky in Romania during Spring…
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The Woman – interview
Violeta Altmann is an atypical mother, if we look at her in a superficial way and especially through the prism of generations raised in a conservative and closed Romania. Towards the end of college she traveled to the States with Work and Travel, in California and eventually ended up working for one of the most…
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God sees me
The past few nights I woke up and couldn’t sleep for a few hours. Instead of worrying about stuff, I decided to pray. If I had no words to pray, I would meditate on God. At some point, it dawned on me that God sees me. God knows how I feel, and there is no…
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Let us not forget
Our purpose in our children’s lives. To see the best in themTo envision their best version. To build them upTo polish gentlyAnd let them see and feel our extravagant love. When we gently correct Or remind them the millionth time To not speak with food in the mouth Or to put away the dirty socks And it seems…
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Hopeful
As I was getting ready for bed, I clicked and listened to this interview. I stumbled on this woman’s blog (Andreea) a few year ago, and it was so poignant, it moved me to tears every time I would read it. At some point I got to meet her mom share her story in an…
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Burnout & hot chocolate
Burnout. I feel it all around me. Spread like wildfire. The burnout of life, the tedious day-in and day-out, of social distancing like a home arrest. We all used all our tricks to adapt, to survive and in some cases to thrive. We were not the most extravagant parents before, but we had our sense…
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Povestea noastră pe scurt
La sfârsit de iarnă, la capătul puterilor, n-am știut dacă am ceva coerent de spus. Mă surprinde bucuria ce transpare în ochii mei, pentru că de fapt eram extrem de obosită. Am ales să accept invitația de a povesti despre adopție în cadrul acestui proiect, pentru că, așa cum editorul filmulețuilui a scos ce-i mai…
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Când e bună frica?
Ferice de omul pe care-l ceartă Dumnezeu, si frica de Domnul este începutul înțelepciunii. Vorbeam aseara despre nu stiu ce, dar am spus ca ma bucur ca tati e om cu frică de Dumnezeu. Jackie uluita de aceasta idee: “Cum adica sa ne fie frica de Dumnezeu.” Si uite asa intram in chestiuni de finete…
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Reflective winter psalm poem
Psalm 93-94 The howling anger was quietedAt the foot of the cross The circumstances in essence unchangedThere was peace in the eye of the storm As emotions and annoyances stirI keep them in checkI push them down with easeI stuff them deeperAnd peace is kept. A month, two months go byAnd I feel less and…