Category: Spiritual
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Minciunici și minciunele
A nins de un metru. Azi comandam ultimele lucruri necesare pentru casa in progres. Il las pe Conrad langa Dedeman si merg s-o iau pe Jackie de la școala. Îmi propun o atitudine jovială, senina, calda. E o zi buna de altfel. Dar as vrea sa transmit liniște si siguranța copiilor mei, in tumultul asta…
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Rhythm
it doesn’t take much to make us happy. Parents learn to lower their expectation and become really easy to please, the more discomfort they experience on a regular basis. The things I long for these days are: respect for boundaries, gratefulness, and mind engagement… Both girls started school this week. Them having a routine is…
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The definition of love
That catchy phrase: “all you need is love” is not true. I have heard adoption representatives saying that parents need to be ready to offer abundant love. If there is lots of love it will all be alright. I disagree. Because there is a human limitation to this love proclaimed. So I guess we first…
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Irreverence
There is a lightness in the air In this whole turmoil of life, Conrad has my back. He is my number one fan. Encouraging. Serving. Generous with his time and gifts. He makes me feel safe and loved and seen and delightful. At the beginning of winter I have been all kind of tired and…
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A doua mama
Am venit cu inima si mintea distrase, nepregatite, deși am avut o oră de liniște înainte de Book club. Cu două saptamâni înainte fusesem așa miscata cand am citit capitolul despre destinul copiilor noștri adoptați, prin prisma poveștii împărătesei Estera. Cu speranța si credința reinnoite despre lucrurile care încă nu se vad, pe care doar…
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Honest gratitude
Trying to induce the feeling of gratitude in our kids, especially by comparison, is not sustainable. It’s even dangerous. I read this idea in an article recently and I let it sink in. It totally makes sense. I don’t remember ever comparing myself to others as a kid. The article says that as we keep…
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Predictability
One morning I had decided on having a good day. When I woke up the girls were already playing energetically in the other room legos or cars or dolls. I uttered an honest short prayer: “dear God, help me be patient and kind and joyous today.” I sat on the couch and they clustered to…
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Retrospect
“If not me, then who?” This is a strong motivator for me, not despite the inadequacy I feel, but because of it. The mirroring of others’ emotions and the trust that we are all the same, gives me courage to rise above my fear. A fellow adoptive mom asked me about a post adoption support…
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Gifts
Jackie enjoys gifts. She takes after her dad this way. She delights in every attention and small gifts she receives. Remembers everything she got, the person who gifted her every small thing, and she exudes joy as she recollects the context in which she received every nice thing. She likes to create cards, crafts, she…
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Words of affirmation
Before the first lemudim camp in 2013We were invited to reflect on our gifts.Brian kept my applicationAnd read it back to meon our wedding day in California.In it I articulated without apologyMy joy and gift of encouraging others.That was my introspection at 18. In my mid twenties I was reluctant to admit itBecause it didn’t…
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A weekly online class
If it wasn’t for our weekly Isaiah class… I would have been worse for wear. This year has been disorienting, difficult. We were stripped of all artificial crutches and were faced with our limitations. First things first. I have nothing to prove. And yet, as I say I struggle with self worth, I realize there…
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November 2020 transitions
After a season of depression Joyless days felt suffocating A season of anger followed. A ticking bomb. Everything irritable. Then I confessed my furry. This overwhelming burden. Then I entered into the season of tears Crying out of nothing Cleansing my eyes Cleansing my heart. Relief. Then Joy restored. Joy restored my heart. My courage.…