Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.
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Tăcut.
Puterea introvertitului într-o lume care nu se poate opri din vorbit. Nu există un șablon omenesc. Fiecare suntem un cumul de informație genetică, experiențe, cultură, context familial, dar mai ales modul unic în care fiecare dintre noi procesam experiențele. M-am identificat ca introvertită până în adolescență. După primul an de facultate însa am trecut printr-o…
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A loyal friend
It’s the middle of winter. The temperature doesn’t rise above freezing. It’s not pleasant to be outside for too long these days. The fog is thick and it dresses every surface in white. But last week we had a few sunny and beautiful days of vacation. We went sledding up the hill and we were…
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Dragoste în plasament
Săptămâna trecută am vizitat foștii asistenți maternali ai lui Jackie. Fără presiunea tranziției fiicei noastre sau a limitelor impuse de stat, prietenia noastră evoluează în mod natural. Conversațiile noastre sunt simple, dar cu adâncime în esență. Vizitându-i ajungem să întâlnim și să ne împrietenim cu ceilalți copii în plasament (care vin, se întăresc, se oblojesc,…
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Foster love
Last week we visited Jackie’s former foster parents. Without the pressure of our daughter’s transition or the state imposed boundaries, our friendship evolves naturally. Our conversations are simple but in between the lines we sense greatness and a silver lining. We get to meet and befriend other foster kids, and that in itself is a…
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Through her eyes
I went to check in on Jackie and cover her, as she tosses and turns. She had been sleeping for over two hours. Conrad and I always enjoy each other’s company after her bedtime, and shamelessly protect our evenings together without her verbose company. As I tuck her in, she sits up in bed and…
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Aspects of adoption
“Without the theological aspect, the emphasis on adoption too easily is seen as mere charity. Without the missional aspect, the doctrine of adoption is too easily seen as mere metaphor.” Russell Moore Adoption is spiritual war. When we lift our eyes from our selfish selves, and we move out of our immediate needs, we learn…
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Acknowledge, Align and Assure
A decade ago I was hired by Apple and I went to a week of training as part of my onboarding process. Everything I learned there was common sense, but in this particular professional context, it had application and structure. We did role-play, we practiced how to give and receive Feedback, and I learned about…
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Tomorrow is Evelyn’s birthday
Who is Evelyn? Your sister. She turns three. Can we go see her on her birthday? We can’t. I’m so sorry. I really-really want to see my sister tomorrow! I don’t understand why we can’t go see her. [Sobbing]. We sat like that for a while, she was crying by my side, head leaning on…
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Drawn or drifting away
As I get older I realize cynicism is more prevalent. Be that as it may, it’s been ingrained in me to speak with honesty and always assume positive intent. This alone has spared me a ton of grief. I had nothing to lose by taking initiative in kindness even when occasionally it was returned with…
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I don’t tiptoe
When it comes to adoption and trauma, or difficult conversations, or potential pain… I don’t tiptoe. I don’t hold my breath. Because it would be exhausting and a disservice. Instead I own my full seat, and I keep my mouth shut while opening my eyes wide. I allow myself to feel. To understand. To remain…
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Christmas came and went
I’ve been sick. My mind has been hazy. And in such a context, I have a hard time trusting my words. They can go either way: crisp insights or messy emotional ramble. Before Christmas Eve I reached out to the jurist, to thank him for his lifeline of availability and generosity in communicating with us,…
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A glimpse into adoption
On a whim, we left our kids with their grandparents and went overnight up in the mountains, to talk about our vision and plans to create an adoption community here in Cluj. [I sense a discomfort in our communities (leaders and otherwise) to even mention this loaded word. Adoption. Is it out of shame (for…
