Category: Poetry
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Grumbling in the desert
Nothing like a dose of humility served with ingratitude by your daughter in front of all your friends. As we give her the stage (because she like to talk or be the center of attention, but she doesn’t have all the filters in place, because she is still a kid, she is still 7, going…
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Guilt
There is this one burden. Guilt. Guilt that I may not be a good enough parent. And the fear that I may not climb out of bitterness. I wrote a poem encapsulating my longing and belief and prayer, as I parent exhausted at times. — My dear daughter jackie Goofy, bright Your mind so hungry,…
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Traveling through layers of depression
I have traveled Through post adoption depression Gently and kindly kept safe By poetry and psalms. High highs and low lows Furry and numbness I have traveled through seasonal depression The never ending cold The wet and dreary weather Safely embraced and soothed by the listening ears I have traveled through pandemic depression Not alone …
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Psalm 104
I loved Psalm 104. I loved all the psalms of praise. Who knew there is so much depth in joy and gratitude and exaltation. Psalm 104 fed me. Grounded me. The imagery, the simplicity and depth of truth exposed. I look at a beautiful grey sky as I write. The sky in Romania during Spring…
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A si A’ poem de mama
In primul sezon rolul de mama m-a împlinit M-a înflorit. A dat roade. Mi-a dat un scop. Un loc. O bucurie nespus de mare. Acum, In alt sezon Același rol de mama ma frânge. Ma zdrobește. Stoarce din mine tot mustul Macină grâul, pana la ultimul fir Sa poata pregăti pâine Împărtășirea. Ma țin cu…
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Let us not forget
Our purpose in our children’s lives. To see the best in themTo envision their best version. To build them upTo polish gentlyAnd let them see and feel our extravagant love. When we gently correct Or remind them the millionth time To not speak with food in the mouth Or to put away the dirty socks And it seems…
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blocked care
“If I feel this way, others must experience similar feelings.” I have this unconfirmed-by-facts sense of familiarity with the world around me. It has been a launching pad for courage: “If not me, then who?” I feel nervous or afraid, but the truth needs to be spoken or the action be taken, and I step…
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Burnout & hot chocolate
Burnout. I feel it all around me. Spread like wildfire. The burnout of life, the tedious day-in and day-out, of social distancing like a home arrest. We all used all our tricks to adapt, to survive and in some cases to thrive. We were not the most extravagant parents before, but we had our sense…
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Reflective winter psalm poem
Psalm 93-94 The howling anger was quietedAt the foot of the cross The circumstances in essence unchangedThere was peace in the eye of the storm As emotions and annoyances stirI keep them in checkI push them down with easeI stuff them deeperAnd peace is kept. A month, two months go byAnd I feel less and…
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Irreverence
There is a lightness in the air In this whole turmoil of life, Conrad has my back. He is my number one fan. Encouraging. Serving. Generous with his time and gifts. He makes me feel safe and loved and seen and delightful. At the beginning of winter I have been all kind of tired and…
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A doua mama
Am venit cu inima si mintea distrase, nepregatite, deși am avut o oră de liniște înainte de Book club. Cu două saptamâni înainte fusesem așa miscata cand am citit capitolul despre destinul copiilor noștri adoptați, prin prisma poveștii împărătesei Estera. Cu speranța si credința reinnoite despre lucrurile care încă nu se vad, pe care doar…
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Words of affirmation
Before the first lemudim camp in 2013We were invited to reflect on our gifts.Brian kept my applicationAnd read it back to meon our wedding day in California.In it I articulated without apologyMy joy and gift of encouraging others.That was my introspection at 18. In my mid twenties I was reluctant to admit itBecause it didn’t…