Category: Spiritual
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A blessed evening
A home group. Cu dor de acasa. We found ourselves in this new small community, new friends having adoption in common, to share our journey onward and upward. Our brokenness, our longing for God, our insecurity in walking by faith. Today we listened to a powerful speaker talk about our Eastern culture “addiction to comfort”…
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Adopția între teologie și practică
de Russell Moore – Adoptat pe viață Adopția e, pe de o parte, “Evanghelie”. Prin ea, adopția ne spune cine suntem noi in calitate de copii ai Tatălui. Adopția ca Evanghelie ne spune despre identitatea, moștenirea și misiunea noastră ca fii ai lui Dumnezeu. Adopția mai este si “misiune”. Prin ea, adoptia ne spune ce scop…
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Proactive not reactive
We’re exhausted trying to catch up with our eldest daughter. She entered a new season of independence from us, of self awareness and curiosity about her strength and boundaries. And we’ve been playing catch-up, reacting to her mind boggling experiments. They make no sense. I don’t think there is a reasoning behind them. Ideas come…
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Prayer and people
How can a simple get together shift my perspective so much. We were 6 adults and 6 kids on a very generous back yard lawn. A few cats, a dog and toys. There was pizza and there were caveats of silence. All of us weigh our thoughts and words, our questions and curiosities. We find…
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Precious Jewels
“Lift up your eyes and look around; all your children gather and come to you. As surely as I live,” declares the Lord, “you will wear them all as ornaments; you will put them on, like a bride.”— Isaiah 49:18 God lives.I lift my eyes upAnd see the sun riseThe mountains bowtheir tallest peaks A…
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I dream of death
Jackie dreams of death.Her death. Our death. We carry heavy burdensOf painful changeOf life and love. There is sicknessto be dealt withAnd as I sit in the dentist chairUpholding my youngestShe is braveAnd sits still through the procedure She bonds with meAs I help herTo undergo the dental work Somehow she knowsIf for her long…
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Worry
Interesting trend. I feel overwhelmed. Pessimistic. I worry about the girls, their health. This week we had appointments every day. Monday the general practitioner, Tuesday the social worker visit, Wednesday the dentist, Thursday we go see an orthopedic specialist. Jackie appears to develop scoliosis, ivy’s ribcage is oddly shaped. This is a known issue, due…
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Last night without Evelyn
I could see clear progress the last few weeks, before the court’s decision to entrust Evelyn to us for good. I honestly thought the delay was pointless and will do more harm than good. Especially now that we had developed a tight relationship with our daughter. I tried to be so efficient. It’s in my…
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Surely God is with us
inspired by Isaiah 45:15 Fear has paralyzed my sensesCould these people interfere with our adoptionCould we lose our daughterJust out of spite?Would they? I kept reading your WordTo remember.You are for us.You are always present.Even when it seems you are hidingLike a Father in the parkWatching from safe distanceTo see what we doIn such a…
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Emerging
My Father,I read Your words and they soothe me.I wake up early and I draw near to You.I go to sleep late, And my head rests on Your chest. During my waking hours,I take Your hand. I hold it tight. And follow You, with small steps. I am weary. And I am afraid. Furry and disappointment Discouragement and distress. How can…
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How do you feel?
Nourished or undernourished? Alive or barely surviving? A while ago, the emergency situation stoped being an issue of health or danger of infection. For our country of Romania, for our Cluj county. We are also such home bodies, and we enjoy our social distancing, that we don’t mingle much with others anyway. And for months…
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Healing
I am a rule follower. I am obedient and I see a strong correlation between integrity and respecting the law. On the other hand, the kid in us wants to know: Are the rules clear? Do they make sense? Are they clearly communicated? We are not built to blindly follow. We are built to discern…