Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.
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Joyous Sunday with friends
What a wonderful day! It’s late afternoon, and the house is quiet. Jaclyn is sleeping in her bed, and daddy is savoring his well earned nap in the loft.
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Full spectrum
I can’t stand full time perfectness and I don’t trust all around jolliness. We are humans and we experience a full spectrum of emotions, including sadness, boredom, apprehension, hope, desire, like or dislike.
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“I’ve got it from here”… or have I?
Have you prayed for something for a long time, and it is finally given to you with lavish generosity? And you are in awe of God’s attention to detail. And then automatically you feel like you have arrived, and you feel responsible to take over the project…
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We met Alex again
On one of our drives up to the mountains, we saw Alex, the 12 year old boy, hitchhiking again. He was out to get food on credit, but the store in one of the villages doesn’t give food on credit so he was walking to the next village. Conrad dropped me off at the foster family…
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Transition period
We’ve gone over the loose timeline of the adoption a lot. Many of the details were to be processed during their respective steps. All I could remember from the practical matching period was that we were to get acquainted, then proceed through mutual attachment as we would spend time together, first at the foster parent’s…
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The Next Step
Yesterday, we woke up excited to get our last in-home meeting out of the way and potentially bring Jaclyn home today for good. However, God had different plans for us. We received a call from the head social worker over coffee that our specific social worker would be too busy today to meet with us…
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Attachment and healing
Time will pass and I will forget some details. I mentioned at the beginning that she was shy and we were clumsy the first time we met. But from the moment we had to say goodbye the very first time, she was sad to see us leave. She’s been cared for and I dare say well…
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Bossa Nova & Banana Muffins
I love this process of becoming a father. It seems a bit unorthodox, or rather, jumping into the deep end of a pool you can’t see the bottom of… in winter, but I love it anyway. Every day I learn something new about my daughter. Yesterday, she ate three of the banana muffins I baked…
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Think before you speak
Kids love. They have a tremendous capacity to love and to reflect whatever you show them.
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The Shifting Coffee Grounds of Our Life
I have this morning ritual. I’ve been curating it carefully for the last nine-and-a-half years, and I it’s become second nature to me now.
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Like a baby
Yes, parenting a three year old is exhausting, yet we do it with glee, one day at a time.
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Jaclyn is you
I have felt God so real and so loving these past few weeks. So generous and silently reassuring that He has always been and is in control. My heart is bursting with gratitude and joy.
