Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.
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First day home
I’ll keep it short as it’s late, and it was a very long day, but so fulfilling, so joyous. Jaclyn came home today for the first time. She met Rufus and made friends in the neighborhood. We played with the many games we bought. She always makes up a new game with whatever game pieces she…
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Feeling better
I hope I will never forget that we all have a unique way of experiencing even the same story. And that I will never assume or project my own limited take on things on others. I have been stretched and easily angered by everyone else other than the adoption crew. I tilted the balance to…
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Intense emotions
There isn’t a map to precisely navigate these emotions. I spend lavishly every last ounce of energy, excitement, patience, then I accumulate information, and I do everything in my power to keep up with the proper rhythm of it all (be that I have to slow down, slow and steady can be hard).
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Not my story to tell
As this blogs stands to witness, I feel free with my own story. One may use the information to form a skewed opinion about me, I don’t really care. Your judgement says more about you than me.
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Among the fears…
We are so used to our own journey, that we forget how unusual it can seem at a glance. We processed emotions and decisions in their due time, and filed them away.
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Sidestory
As we were driving back from spending the day with our daughter, between villages we passed by a boy hitchhiking. So we pulled over. He ran to the car and opened the car door saying he needs to go to Lita, two villages down, a few miles of windy road, but he felt the need…
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Living in the present
Everything is going as smoothly as it can. Jaclyn calls us Mami & Tati, takes my hand to help her go to the bathroom (aka just turn the light on and make sure everything goes smoothly), goes for walks with us, lets us help her to put clothes or shoes on (though she barely needs…
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Arranged relationships
I have a hard time falling asleep every night since we met our daughter. The intake of information and emotions is overwhelming. The foster parents who took care of our daughter these past two years are delightful and they have taken care of many foster children over the last two decades, seasoned parents, generous and…
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May God Protect
I knew it with clarity of mind: She will be our daughter. And we will love her forever With commitment and joy Through the ups and downs of her unique story With gratitude and faith.
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It’s a match
We started this blog in the early spring of 2014, in California. We documented our journey, with all it’s detours, as I dug deeper and went farther. Last night I thought to myself that I may suspend the blog until I have news about adoption. For the 15 readers out there… you’ll be forced to…
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CouplesFellowshipCluj
A new couple in our class described how he leaned to better relate to his wife. Usually humans learn this concept in the reverse direction from humans to God, but he explained it so smooth and eloquent. I’ll paraphrase, of course. The relationship with my wife is just like the relationship with God. There are…
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Fishing
There are people who go through life never learning to ask a point black question. My guess is that they don’t want to deal with hearing “no”. They drop hints left and right, hoping that some will stick and that there are people willing or can’t help picking them.
