Category: Spiritual
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Lumini în cetate
La inițiativa și invitația unor mame, am zis da și eu, sa ajut cum pot să pornească un grup mops și în biserica pe care o frecventez. Îmi este foarte clar care nu sunt darurile mele, și cu toate astea mă străduiesc să nu las garda jos și să fac un efort. Să cresc și…
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Rugina
Din neveghere s-a atins rugina de mintea mea. Lăsată în ploaie, neadăpostită, necurățată… Totul părea în regula, dar în timp am început sa aud scârțâieli. Provocări, ispite, greutăți, nimeni nu este scutit. Ele vin și trec, și iar vin. Mai descurajată sunt când se repeta. Uneori am Impreza ca am plătit deja prețul și nu…
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Refreshed
When the week feels repetitive and demanding, and the weekend is pre packed with social engagements, I get a bit anxious. Will I have the energy for it all? As my cup fills with good conversations, and the kids are included and present and easy going, I see old friends, we host our pastor from…
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There must be a purpose
I feel I’m in the trenches of life. Experiencing discomfort, growing pains, perspective and disillusionment to the fullest. Life is hard. I lost my perspective of joy. But I cling onto the hope that everything I suffer will birth the passion of my next chapter. I am passionate about so many things. I polish my…
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God and fear
The awe, the respect, the fear, these were modeled to me as a kid. This is what makes me shiver with life as I read the Bible. I understand this language. The adults in my life didn’t lie to me with the sweetly sickening softness. They were fair and trustworthy yet they made us tremble…
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Felt safety and lamentations
Ignorance is a privilege. My dad was quiet in my adolescencePunitive, or at least he threatened to punish But I knew deep down that he loved meHe was dependable A good listener and always happy to see me I do equate the felt safety around my dadWith God. And how he is to this day. Not much…
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Forewarned
How does my experience or lack there of, fit in this conversation. I study lamentations and in the beginning of the book, Israel is compared to a desolate woman, a woman who undergoes a sexual assault. Lamentations 1:10 The enemy has laid his handover all her precious things; for she has seen [pagan] nations entering into her…
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Hugs from Jackie
We have had a rough year. Actually the last three years were rough all in all. The moment we adopted Ivy, things changed. I was more tired, and she, my first daughter, pulled away. She never showed resentment toward the young sister. She adapted and tried. I also noticed her scoliosis the month after Ivy…
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At capacity
We live with no margin. Even if I save some space, mental, physical, on the clock, it has become the space where I dump last minute requests, needs, plan changes. So while I get high on the success of fitting everything in just right, then I crash into the realization that this is not sustainable.…
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Compassion and curiosity
Most often I don’t feel compelled to share out loud, as words come out irreverent, botched, inadequate, but sometimes i feel I am left with words on the tip of my tongue. So I’ll spill them here to free myself. This is how I open the door to join in the feast. I have learned…
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Invitation
It’s Sunday morning. I hear a knock on the door. Rufus hears it too and barks his head off. He gets really worked up when someone’s at the door. Extreme enthusiasm. We don’t get visitors at the door often. But when we do, it’s the neighborhood kids. Conrad jokingly said: any kid that shows up…
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Simple rules
After I had a good conversation with Jackie about decision making and empowering her to try, to step forward, to decide for herself many of the daily choices, because I trust her judgement and I believe she will make mostly good decisions, the next day I softened my passion, added some creativity and told ivy…