Author: Violeta
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Another month went by
At noon Ivy called. We were in the center, on the citadel. She was happy and informed us that she is coming to Cluj, to be with us. It was a very sweet call and reassuring about her state of mind and willingness to join us. We read between the lines, of course, and maybe…
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Surely God is with us
inspired by Isaiah 45:15 Fear has paralyzed my sensesCould these people interfere with our adoptionCould we lose our daughterJust out of spite?Would they? I kept reading your WordTo remember.You are for us.You are always present.Even when it seems you are hidingLike a Father in the parkWatching from safe distanceTo see what we doIn such a…
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Parenting paradox
Having a 3 year old around is energizing. I can see the irony in the above statement.We’ve welcomed the respite of peace and silence when jackie spends the day with the grandparents. But right now we long to have our kids with us. To drink up from the closeness, the snuggles, the music, the drawing…
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June 1st, 2018
“Open your eyes and you will see that I am God. You will see that I am in all things. You will see that I do everything. You will see that I have never ceased to carry out my plans, nor will I ever cease. You will see that I am leading all things to…
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Stories
When we adopted Jackie, I traveled back in time and I got to live part of a childhood I didn’t have. There were no bedtime stories. My grandma made us read Psalms at night, to keep my cousins and I occupied. I always suspected it was a trick to help my cousins with their reading.…
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Pain.
No matter how beautifully we paint the adoption story, there is a lot of ache, peppered throughout the journey. I am unapologetically optimistic. My hope is in the Lord. But I still know full well that, the weeks to come, many tears will be shed. By our daughters, by us, by the foster family. For…
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Adoption day
After the country wide lockdown ended, we were finally able to travel and see our youngest daughter. Ah! Sweet reunion! She ran into our arms and stayed like that for a while. To this day I remember my dad’s facial expression, his eyes, his smile, welcoming me in his big strong arms, as I ran…
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Ways we tried to prepare Ivy for the big move
We are aware there is going to be a mourning period in her transition to us, her forever family. She has been well loved and spoiled in her foster family. She hasn’t lacked for much there. Especially during her early childhood. Living on a farm is pretty idyllic. But Ivy goes to bed at 10…
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We move forward with hope
I knew my view is skewed, but I couldn’t quite straighten it. In the midst of tension and hardship, we can’t pull ourselves by the bootstraps. We need help. I worried about a lot of things. That my daughter will suffer unnecessarily, that there will be irreparable damage, of lost faith, lost hope, lost trust. …
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Emerging
My Father,I read Your words and they soothe me.I wake up early and I draw near to You.I go to sleep late, And my head rests on Your chest. During my waking hours,I take Your hand. I hold it tight. And follow You, with small steps. I am weary. And I am afraid. Furry and disappointment Discouragement and distress. How can…
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How do you feel?
Nourished or undernourished? Alive or barely surviving? A while ago, the emergency situation stoped being an issue of health or danger of infection. For our country of Romania, for our Cluj county. We are also such home bodies, and we enjoy our social distancing, that we don’t mingle much with others anyway. And for months…
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From endless delay to overnight change
I am really nervous. After months of not knowing what’s going to happen with our adoption process, things are sped up all of a sudden. The country is in an alert state after the pandemic lock down. But our CPS has received guidance regarding the last evaluation before they submit the papers to court. So…