Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.
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Book reviews
I’ve been invited by three different venues to do a book launch with them. But I’m not yet recovered from my vulnerability hangover. This year I’d like to spend behind the scene, quiet, reflecting and pondering life. I knew my book is not for everyone, but I felt deeply that, for the few that I…
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About friendship
Showing upTo offer time.Making time.Showing up with vulnerability. Honest.Receptive. Curious. Practicing intelectual hospitality. Spiritual Hospitality.Friendliness. Midlife FriendshipsA group of islandsOur imediat thirst for connection filledWith family. We don’t even quite know or have time to observe what we want, what we like, what we need. Women. Mothers. A different species.Self reliant. Self suficient. Self confident.…
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Holding back
I have enjoyed the present,the gift of time,the fragrance and the taste of the ProvenceWith butter croissants and ice cream and cheeses We have had a lovely reset and I felt happyI rested my mind while my legs got tired exploring Even my kids who were so well behaved on this tripnoted that I was…
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Mundane Provence
Waking up to a quiet house,Every room full, but still asleep.I step slowly into the sun drenched kitchen,And I make coffee. Legs stretched on the kitchen day bedI sip the coffee and look towards the cypress trees shivering with joyBirds singing, bees dancing.This must be heaven. Women on a retreatHappy. Radiating. This lineup in Provencecould…
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Reset in Provence
Postponed joy. Delayed gratificationeventually embracing adventureAnd making buttery memoriesAnd savoring blasting contagious laughter. Livia, the ever generous hostWaiting for us with everything preparedAnticipating every detailAnd spoiling us with stories and croissants There is an intuitive dance in the kitchenWomen, mothers, serving each otherNone waiting to be served. And there is a feast of gratitudeand an…
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Teenagers learning to cook and cheap labor
Four years ago we contracted a house interior finishes crew. They had some experience and covered a lot of skills in interior finishes. But they also had a diverse pool of people, some just starting, some needing a lot of hand holding, some having to redo the work and pulling tiles of the wall is…
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Planning to go but willing to stay
I have renewed energy as I gain some clarity about my timeline in this volunteering project. I have been intensely stretched and on one hand I loved the community. But on the other hand I have felt out of my league against my will. So many times I felt close to panic attack due to…
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Ioana
I regard you with envy and admiration.A decision that was fraught over.Not easy. But necessary.Closing a chapter. Making a clean cut.I appreciate your declared availabilityBut it’s not necessary.I worry for that phrase. The open door.Hopefully we won’t abuse it.Maybe you’ve tested the waters of absence,letting us go. Slowly over time.We’ll make do.I want to bless…
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Be yourself
We try to do what’s right but not from within, not from our deep and slow earned wisdom but by being bombarded with new ideas and gentle parenting misunderstood. Oh, you can feel from a mile away a parent who feels in control of their own lives and emotions. Who glide with confidence. Who ooze…
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Worry about adulthood
“You know what keeps me up at night?” Jackie is on spring vacation and more chatty at home, more open, settled, and fun to be around. Even though she has a great social context at school, it puts her on edge often. Navigating social drama takes up so much of our kid’s energy. There is…
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Easter with family
We cleaned the terrace and I brought the round table in, to extend the large dining room table so it could fit us all together. Conrad cooked paprikas and baked corn bread. There was an abundance of food. I baked pocket cheesecakes and everyone was happy to enjoy a slow Sunday together. Recently I had…
