Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.

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  • Self confidence

    Self confidence

    How easy it is for the self-importance car to take a wrong turn. Here we are, driving the proper way, switching only occasionally to course correct. But mostly going in the right direction. Even when I worried, I sensed God’s delight in our obedience despite the imediate results. These days of over confidence boost, riding…

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  • you pray

    you pray

    This is how Ivy calls me to their room after we already said good night, and Conrad and I read quietly on the couch. It’s usually to talk through something and to pray. I usually have to dig a little deeper to find the real question. Ivy deflects.⁃ what do you mean?She repeats the question.…

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  • Chasing the trousers thief 

    Chasing the trousers thief 

    Conrad and I were gone on a hike. As we always were during the free time. The girls are confidently independent. We slowly but surely built towards this independence, for our sanity and their development.  Ivy followed Heather & Noemi up to their crowded room. 6 girls per room. As they were busy getting something,…

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  • A chance to reset

    A chance to reset

    We spent the day in town waiting for the windshield to be fixed. There was a delay and for that we even got a discount. But the day was long and hot. We stayed hydrated and we made the best of it without spending a ton of money.  We got home and the day was…

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  • Feedback

    Feedback

    A few years ago I was a big believer and proponent of sharing feedback in various professional contexts. I even held some training classes in diferent companies. But as a guest trainer I believe the impact is much lighter. Not knowing the culture and not working side by side with the teams – my experience…

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  • momco iris

    momco iris

    M-am gândit la voi zilele astea. Si țin sa va spun ca felul cum v-ați adaptat la necunoscut si ați slujit, a făcut ca fiecare întâlnire MomCo din Iris sa fie plină de har.Îmi doresc sa va fi putut sprijini si încuraja mai mult in acești ani. Am pășit in aceasta slujire la capacitate redusă,…

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  • MVT – întâlnire de vară

    MVT – întâlnire de vară

    Mă întreb uneori daca e bine sa apar așa epuizată la întâlniri de lucru. Dar realizez cu îngrijorare ca asta a devenit modul standard de operare de câțiva nai. Unele zile sunt mai eficiente ca altele dar nu sunt predictibile. Totuși daca as aștepta sa fiu bine odihnita nu as mai merge sau nu as…

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  • 18 years of marriage and a visit to the courthouse

    18 years of marriage and a visit to the courthouse

    We were the last ones on the roll, and we waited outside for all the drama to happen inside. And we chatted – I got to catch up with Adriana, who came there just in case we needed a witness. But we didn’t. She waited an hour with us. In front of us there were…

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  • A friend to call upon

    A friend to call upon

    It may be my lack of practice in asking for help, but I felt utterly sad when I realized that, though I believe I have numerous friends, I have a hard time finding one close enough to inconvenience and call to be our witness at the Courthouse for when Conrad adopts the girls. It’s summer,…

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  • Broken windshield

    Broken windshield

    I was on a weekend of planning with the momco leaders. It started Friday afternoon, the day our extended family went back to USA. That morning I drove them to the airpot at 4 AM. I was tired, to say the least. But I showed up. So far I jumped from one event to another,…

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  • exclusivity & maturity

    exclusivity & maturity

    We’ve had so many good conversation, my daughters and I. Honesty draws them in. We chat about everything and I’m honored by their trust and desire to share with me their dreams, worries, milestones and other events. Jackie has liked boys since she was in kindergarten. They enjoyed her company and they were kind and…

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  • Civil disobedience

    I have been a very obedient child. Having an older brother who stepped on a few mines of exploring his free will, I have learned to navigate the social system to my advantage. I could have been an expert manipulator. I worried at times that I’m too good and nimble in social settings to be…

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