Category: Spiritual
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Prayer
If I were to create a chart, a graph of my emotional stability and my prayer life, I think I would see some direct correlation. I’m not that nerdy though. Alas, the last few months, I have coasted, trying to regain my balance and did not dig deep into introspection and prayer. I talk to…
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Generosity
There are quotes that pop into my head, when it comes to generosity. “Give to the one who asks of you” But in the same breath I hear: Be wise and use your discernment. Be intentional and set clear boundaries. Too easily we, with our human nature, go from gratitude to expectation and then to…
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The familiar adoption world
“You love adoption, right mommy?” Asks ivy holding a bunch of pages she has drawn on. “I drew a book about adoption. Will you help me staple the pages?” She proceeds to walk me through the five beautiful drawings. She is 6 years old and she will be an architect. She practices every day. She…
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Conversații bogate
Petrec serile răspunzând la întrebări. E un timp bogat de conectare cu fetele mele. Recunosc ca îmi place sa am o audiență așa captivată de ce am de zis. Doar ca setea lor e de nestăvilit. Întrebările curg, inima si mintea lor se umple. Nu mereu am energie sau cuvinte sa Le fac pe plac.…
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My birthday
It must be a gift This sense of generosity of life, the feeling that I received abundant love, so much so that for the rest of my life I only need to give it in order to be happy. My core belief is that i am deeply loved and safe. No, my parents weren’t perfect.…
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mount Hebron dew
Hungry and lonely We are or have been foreignersGod called us out of our father’s housePilgrims and sojournersWe are not home stillBut we got a glimpse of our final destinationA taste of what’s to come. The banquet.Meanwhile we cook on this side of heavenAnd we pull a chair or a benchOr add another table to…
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Ethnicity
Today in civics class, the teacher invited my older daughter to tell her story. Only if she wants to. Adoption is not a secret at home, in the neighborhood, in the church or at school. The natural way we treat this part of our story was passed on as such. It is neither good nor…
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The effort
Livia shows up. I see her. She sees me. It has been a year of brokenness and exhaustion. Sometimes we can’t articulate with all the words the darkness we felt. But in it, there was a light. Steady. Bright. Why did you come? Why are you going? What’s here to do? What’s there to do?…
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Contextual reading
I re-read Psalm 132 in Romanian. It doesn’t have the same hint of favoritism as I sensed in the English version. It does not compare my value and my worth today with a specific dwelling in time and space. I’m reminded of the power of languages. And I don’t even speak the original Hebrew version. …
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Too much or too little attention
The need to be seen, to be acknowledged, is timeless, ageless, borderless. I start from a place of awe and gratitude that I am even included. I know I am valued, loved and safe, but for some reason I have this sense of being invisible. I sometimes take my leave from parties without saying goodbye…
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Dialog despre Adopție
“Un gând care nu-mi dă pace” fraza cu care ne-au abordat mai mulți prieteni dornici sa afle mai multe despre ce înseamnă sa adopți un copil. Așadar îi invitam la o Conversație pe toți cei pe care gândul adopției nu le da pace. La un dialog. Sa confruntam realitatea. Sa aflam despre procedura, despre asumarea…
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Mudslide
It felt like a whirlwind, a mudslide of noise, opinions, decisions. Spending money is the sauce for extra stress. And this month I had to pay our property taxes, rent income tax, health insurance, and there are a few trips coming up. We bought equipment for hiking in Austria, and my biggest burden this fall,…