Category: Spiritual
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Comparison
I always believed that my self-sufficiency was rooted in my introversion. I didn’t need others to feel at ease, whole, happy. It may have had something to do with my dedication to God, no matter what, when I was 12. I had become aware of my complete and utter need for Him, based on everything…
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Honest look at my schedule
It’s so freeing to speak the truth. I got on a zoom call to meet a new friend and see if I could help her set up a few private screenings of a movie she produced. A mutual friend who is too kind and sees the very best in everyone, she connected us. I admit…
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Hospitality – in progress
I have worked on this topic for a long time. I’m re-polishing a talk fit a certain context. At some point I had two different directions, both valid and powerful. But my heart is on simplifying it. Too much information crowds the heart.
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Book reviews
I’ve been invited by three different venues to do a book launch with them. But I’m not yet recovered from my vulnerability hangover. This year I’d like to spend behind the scene, quiet, reflecting and pondering life. I knew my book is not for everyone, but I felt deeply that, for the few that I…
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About friendship
Showing upTo offer time.Making time.Showing up with vulnerability. Honest.Receptive. Curious. Practicing intelectual hospitality. Spiritual Hospitality.Friendliness. Midlife FriendshipsA group of islandsOur imediat thirst for connection filledWith family. We don’t even quite know or have time to observe what we want, what we like, what we need. Women. Mothers. A different species.Self reliant. Self suficient. Self confident.…
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Mundane Provence
Waking up to a quiet house,Every room full, but still asleep.I step slowly into the sun drenched kitchen,And I make coffee. Legs stretched on the kitchen day bedI sip the coffee and look towards the cypress trees shivering with joyBirds singing, bees dancing.This must be heaven. Women on a retreatHappy. Radiating. This lineup in Provencecould…
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Worry about adulthood
“You know what keeps me up at night?” Jackie is on spring vacation and more chatty at home, more open, settled, and fun to be around. Even though she has a great social context at school, it puts her on edge often. Navigating social drama takes up so much of our kid’s energy. There is…
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Words have power
I remembered, I felt how powerful a positive word spoken clearly in my mind can be.When have I stopped doing that? Why? I have lived in a fog. Dense. Sticky with sadness, tiredness. Then after clearing the film of silence off the topI could breath againAnd hearI listened to barely whispered questionsAnd received an answer.Not…
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lead feet
Don’t invite me to go upfrontAnd talkDon’t expect me to say anything brilliant. The well is dryMy mouth is dryMy soul feels dry. I never feared public speakingThere is no sense of terror or panic or embarrassmentBut I have nothing to say these days.Nothing at all. It felt so good to share these with a…
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Emotions
As a kid my mom embraced my tears. She let me cry. Ironically, her embracing my tears helped me get over them easier and faster. She would say: “let your tears flow. They cool you down. They cleanse your heart and mind.” I don’t overthink my tears. If I feel like crying, I cry. My…
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Spiral
I catch myself obsessing over efficiencyCarrying in my mind plans and ideasI do it because it pays offMost often In my exhausted stateI only rev my engineBut make no progress Occasionally I recognize the frettingAs anxious thoughtsLike a bad dreamWhen I am lucid enoughTo recognize that this is not reality I have never had a…
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mici răutăți
Cum îi protejăm pe copiii noștri de micile și mările răutăți în contexte unde nu suntem prezenți? La școală, pe stradă, în parc. Atașamentul de un adult iubitor căptușește inima și mintea de tachinări. Nu ca nu le mai simt copii dar nu îi afectează la fel de mult sau pe termen lung. E un…