Category: Family
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Emotions
As a kid my mom embraced my tears. She let me cry. Ironically, her embracing my tears helped me get over them easier and faster. She would say: “let your tears flow. They cool you down. They cleanse your heart and mind.” I don’t overthink my tears. If I feel like crying, I cry. My…
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The fog has lifted
My own emotionsOut of my control.The emotions are not to be fabricatedBut observed,Processed and embraced.I want to feel brave and kind and generousI want to serve with endless energy But I am a limited human.And that is ok. After a few weeks of unhealthy airThere was a fog of pollutionAnd heavy still airFinally the wind…
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Pulling a tooth that wasn’t ready
Ivy has a million ideas, daring, dangerous.She tries things even when I tell her not toI explain why notI pleadI set boundariesTo no avail. She sometimes listensMost often she doesn’t Today I couldn’t see where she was when picking her upNadia told me she lost a toothand went to the bathroomThere was blood. She came…
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Change of routine
I’ve been too exhausted to plan a rest period. I didn’t know whom to turn to for respite. Home life demands my active involvement in every area. Occasionally I take a step back, but I hold my breath knowing it is only temporary. I keep going. Like a soldier. Tired to the bone but not…
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My resting hour
A month of finding my balance. A dry grey month. Cold. Sad. Depressing. I’m so glad February is over. We are a team but so often, every other day, in my quest to serve and provide, I look at my family and wonder if any of it is worth it. I race to serve to…
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Silent
I have danced an exhausting routine of wordsWisdom impartedCorrection and gentle nudgingWe have prayed and I have preachedI always had an answer and an explanationReading between the lines to what the question actually wasAnd kept one step aheadAnticipating needs knowing intuitively what they needAs I knew what they already knew themselves. Until one Sunday disagreement…
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Attachment
I have successfully fulfilled this essential needs for our kids.For 8 years respectively 5 years.Availability, guidance and connection. I was easily accessibleI could read between the linesAlways mediating, always there. Serving, feeding,Nourishing the mind and the body. As of late I felt more and more used.A punching bagA dumpsite for unpleasant emotions I feel the…
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ski vacation
Blinding lightGrey majestic peaksShivering snow. Powdery and perfect.Smiles through big blue tinted ski gogglesI can feel the adrenalineThe silence and camaraderieThe tiredness at the end of the dayThe sheer splendor of the mountains. My heart achesas I see these gorgeous viewonly in pictures. Is it jealousy?Is it self pity? I can only recognize the winter…
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The gift of curiosity
When we are bogged down by worryWhen we rush through our dayWe don’t lift up our eyes to see anotherWe don’t want to hear anyone’s story. Seeing is loving.Listening with curiosityis generous love. “I see you. I hear you. I believe you.Tell me more.” We could practice this with our spuse. Too quickly we are…
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A different perspective
The air is polluted though the light is bright. It has been a very dry winter. It gets cold still. Very cold. I sense the edge of my burnout dark hole. I still make the mistake of venturing to close, pushing myself to hold on a little longer. Will I ever truly learn my lesson?…
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Țineți copiii aproape
Chiar când simțeam ca îmi scăpa relația cu copiii printre degete, am citit introducerea la cartea asta. Dintr-o dorința intrinseca de a da drumul copiilor, de a-i tine aproape insa cu un simt dezvoltat al independenței, am tot căutat moduri în care sa le dau aripi, sa guste din libertatea sănătoasă. Dar când încercăm asta…
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Defiance
If I were tired and overstimulated, I would interpret defiance as stubborn disobedience and pointless opposition. What a difference a calm heart and mind can make in the approach to normal day to day new challenges. Saturday I attended a moms’ group and I was reminded of the power of prayer in keeping one’s patience…