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Crazy story
A couple of days before mom and dad returned to the States, I was doing some research on iTunes credit, for family sharing. I stumbled upon the information that there was a logic board manufacturing defect for iPhones 8 sold about a year ago in USA and a few other continents, except Europe. In March,…
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On last day of Spring
My watch buzzes gently next to my pillow. It’s 6:45 am. I’ve been so tired lately. Conrad gets up to take the dog for a short morning walk. Rufus is as excited as ever, waiting at the bottom of our loft stairs. Barely reaching to the third step, he kisses my feet. Jackie breaths deeply…
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Parking and lawful boundaries
In my neighborhood community, I have spoken up on matters of common sense, trying to enlist other people’s common sense. But it backfired. People took (unexpected/unfounded) sides. Words were twisted. Meanness transpired. I still stand by my beliefs, but many moons later, I took a different approach on new matters. I don’t hide behind other’s…
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Despre lumină, claritate și încredere
M-am blocat undeva. Prea conștientă de sine. Intr-un punct paradoxal în care cred ca totul e clar pentru toti, si nimic din ce as spune n-ar fi relevant. Prea de ansamblu mi-e vederea. Încerc din răspunderi sa ma cobor din balonul de aer, aruncând greutăți, micșorând focul. Însă rămân suspendată încă. Sus. Prea sus. Si…
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An exercise of silence
Silence comes natural to me. Though the freedom to say nothing at all becomes a luxury in the age of instant connection and social media. Subconsciously I felt I owe the world an update. Yet I had nothing to say. So I said nothing. The more comfortable the embrace of silence became, the more I…
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Practical skills
Miss J had 11 lei she carried around for a while in her handmade green leather wallet. On Monday she couldn’t buy anything from the three stores she visited with daddy. Not enough money? – you just don’t buy anything. Today she bought a candy from the grocery store and pants from a children’s store.…
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Hair
For the last few weeks we’ve had one quarrel with Jackie. Hair. And her stubbornness to not keep it out of her face. After a lovely bob she got last year around this time, her bangs grew thickly all the way bellow her jaw. We’ve been pondering a new style, a fresh haircut, while keeping…
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Generalizations
In general it’s not helpful to generalize. Pun intended. I misspoke today. I generalized. And as the words left my mouth, I knew it, saw it like a slow motion train wreck, but couldn’t redress. There are a slew of proverbs related to loose lips. He who talks lot, it’s impossible to not make mistakes.…
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Post-adoption celebration
It’s mid January. After three weeks of freezing temperatures, today got warmer and it rained. Today we started kindergarten too, after three weeks of vacation. We’ve been preparing our hearts for quite some time to have this adoption reunion in the complete formula. We celebrate family. In a word of “different”, it is incomparable to…
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January 10
Jackie’s prayer tonight “Dear God, thank you for how I played today, thank you for Luca, thank you for the family that You made for me. Thank you for Rufus. Please watch over my sister, and whisper in her ear that she is loved, and that we’ll be reunited soon.” Then earlier today… “I know…
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Rebuilding trust
Winter is depressing. It doesn’t seem to get better with time either. We can easily slide back into old habits of stubborn selfishness. Winter can also be lonely. For self-preservation we learn to detach emotionally. Especially because detaching is not sudden, it is that more dangerous. It erodes. It erodes trust, hope. If we still…
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Dreams and losses
“Shame grows in secrecy, silence and judgment, but it can’t survive surrounded by empathy.” There are a few parenting topics which I realize people don’t talk much about. One of them is the incipient stage of adoption. It’s too emotional and uncertain. People can’t help themselves to not pass judgement, while dressing it up as…