Category: Parenting
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Words have power
I remembered, I felt how powerful a positive word spoken clearly in my mind can be.When have I stopped doing that? Why? I have lived in a fog. Dense. Sticky with sadness, tiredness. Then after clearing the film of silence off the topI could breath againAnd hearI listened to barely whispered questionsAnd received an answer.Not…
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Crazy times in the world
Times are crazy. The war in Ukraine has been going on for over three years. It is impressive that they have been holding down the fort for so long. Ukraine lost 20% of their territory but inched forward into Russia in order to have a bargaining chip when peace talks will take place. We’ve served…
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iPhone 16 Pro Max
The new obsession among the cool girls in Jackie’s class, who makes it sound like everyone has the latest iPhone, except her. This is a 6000 lei phone. An absurd amount, even for people with jobs. Why do preteen think they are entitled to this. So far nothing made Jackie feel like an outsider. Not…
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I’m listening.
This short phrase is so powerful. Some of us heard it occasionally and some of us graced others with it. The silence that follows. The patience. The gift of being heard. I have this gut reaction to a certain situation at school. It doesn’t involve me directly. Until it does. But part of me wants…
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Emotions
As a kid my mom embraced my tears. She let me cry. Ironically, her embracing my tears helped me get over them easier and faster. She would say: “let your tears flow. They cool you down. They cleanse your heart and mind.” I don’t overthink my tears. If I feel like crying, I cry. My…
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Junior high drama
The first clarinet class after the Bach competition, the teacher didn’t show up. I guess he was taking a well deserved Monday off, but forgot to tell us. later edit: Jackie got 1st place 🥇 Jackie called me from music school and I went to pick her up early. She practiced a bit in her…
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Surrounded by takers
When you set yourself up to be a giver.You strive to be a blessing to others, a desirable company,needed and appreciated,And you don’t set some boundariesNot before it’s too late,Not to prove a pointBut to remain engaged and present and fair Lately I don’t feel valuedAs everyone who calls seems to want somethingNeed something. And…
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The fog has lifted
My own emotionsOut of my control.The emotions are not to be fabricatedBut observed,Processed and embraced.I want to feel brave and kind and generousI want to serve with endless energy But I am a limited human.And that is ok. After a few weeks of unhealthy airThere was a fog of pollutionAnd heavy still airFinally the wind…
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Pulling a tooth that wasn’t ready
Ivy has a million ideas, daring, dangerous.She tries things even when I tell her not toI explain why notI pleadI set boundariesTo no avail. She sometimes listensMost often she doesn’t Today I couldn’t see where she was when picking her upNadia told me she lost a toothand went to the bathroomThere was blood. She came…
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Change of routine
I’ve been too exhausted to plan a rest period. I didn’t know whom to turn to for respite. Home life demands my active involvement in every area. Occasionally I take a step back, but I hold my breath knowing it is only temporary. I keep going. Like a soldier. Tired to the bone but not…
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My resting hour
A month of finding my balance. A dry grey month. Cold. Sad. Depressing. I’m so glad February is over. We are a team but so often, every other day, in my quest to serve and provide, I look at my family and wonder if any of it is worth it. I race to serve to…
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Attachment
I have successfully fulfilled this essential needs for our kids.For 8 years respectively 5 years.Availability, guidance and connection. I was easily accessibleI could read between the linesAlways mediating, always there. Serving, feeding,Nourishing the mind and the body. As of late I felt more and more used.A punching bagA dumpsite for unpleasant emotions I feel the…