Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.
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MVT – întâlnire de vară
Mă întreb uneori daca e bine sa apar așa epuizată la întâlniri de lucru. Dar realizez cu îngrijorare ca asta a devenit modul standard de operare de câțiva nai. Unele zile sunt mai eficiente ca altele dar nu sunt predictibile. Totuși daca as aștepta sa fiu bine odihnita nu as mai merge sau nu as…
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18 years of marriage and a visit to the courthouse
We were the last ones on the roll, and we waited outside for all the drama to happen inside. And we chatted – I got to catch up with Adriana, who came there just in case we needed a witness. But we didn’t. She waited an hour with us. In front of us there were…
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A friend to call upon
It may be my lack of practice in asking for help, but I felt utterly sad when I realized that, though I believe I have numerous friends, I have a hard time finding one close enough to inconvenience and call to be our witness at the Courthouse for when Conrad adopts the girls. It’s summer,…
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Broken windshield
I was on a weekend of planning with the momco leaders. It started Friday afternoon, the day our extended family went back to USA. That morning I drove them to the airpot at 4 AM. I was tired, to say the least. But I showed up. So far I jumped from one event to another,…
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exclusivity & maturity
We’ve had so many good conversation, my daughters and I. Honesty draws them in. We chat about everything and I’m honored by their trust and desire to share with me their dreams, worries, milestones and other events. Jackie has liked boys since she was in kindergarten. They enjoyed her company and they were kind and…
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Civil disobedience
I have been a very obedient child. Having an older brother who stepped on a few mines of exploring his free will, I have learned to navigate the social system to my advantage. I could have been an expert manipulator. I worried at times that I’m too good and nimble in social settings to be…
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Conrad becoming a father officially
Took him long enough. Granted, it was a matter of temporary vs permanent residence. And after the first 5 years, he reapplied for a renewal of the temporary residence and only after he could apply for the permanent residence. But just as he got his second term of temporary residence, the pandemic hit. And for…
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Dream
Toward the morning, I dreamt that I was at a large church where Maggie and Mike shared about something. At first it was a mix of the many churches I attended in my life (pbcc Inului Iris) At the end we had prayer time and someone led me by the arm all the way to…
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Am vrut să intru la voi și m-ați primit
Și am cinat împreună și v-am spus de dragostea Tatălui, despre speranța și vindecare. Iertarea e grea pentru cine are așa de mult de iertat. Un tânăr de aceeași vârstă cu Izidor a întrebat ce sa facă daca nu își poate ierta părinții ca l-au abandonat. A crescut in orfelinat pana la 22 ani când…
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Izidor week
I am in awe of how much we were albe to accomplish together. Sarah is a great leader and communicator, and the team was so fun to work with. I don’t feel connected enough nor so resourceful to organize multiple movie screenings. And yet we just wrapped up a week of extraordinary momentum in creating…
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Izidor – day 1
“What would you like me to say in the introduction?” “Ask a few question to draw them in.” — Have you ever visited an orphanage when they were still open, in their classic form? Have you heard of the institution for irrecoverable children? As a kid I visited the orphanage with my church every Easter…
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Failing
There must be a balance between taking care of family with warmth and presence and commitment, and the ability to empower them to grow mature and responsible. I was never pushed outside of my comfort zone too early. Some natural things in my family, like spending time at my grandmother as the eldest cousin, observing…
