Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.
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Apartment Prep
Well the kitchen’s done! After many emails back and forth to the contractors, the counter people and Dan, Vio’s brother, who oversaw the whole thing, it has come together. All of the appliances are installed, the water runs both hot and cold, and the cabinets are all the same color. We really couldn’t have stayed…
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About opinions
Friends are those who enjoy your company and have no immediate plans for your improvement. These are some of those kind of friends we have. I had to wait to get into a good place before I brought this up. I was very judgmental myself, mostly of judgmental people, or strangers, whom ultimately I’m grateful…
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Curiosity
First of all, if I could go unnoticed for long periods of time, I’d be happiest. On the other hand I do love the stage. Public speaking is occasionally my favorite form of making art. Some of you know that there is one question I can’t stand anymore: “where are you from?” I know full…
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Comparison
Time is slow. We daydream of “home” with anticipation. We continue to prepare ourselves physically, emotionally and financially, though there are things we wish we could ready ourselves for, but we have no control over. On a late walk around the neighborhood, as the air cooled down, Conrad and I were talking about a major…
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7 years
Yes, I’ve been married that long. To commemorate this anniversary, we embarked last minute on this camping overnight adventure. The reason I do it is to get back in touch with the earth, literally. Also to test our limits, get all dirty and listen to crickets and loud birds before falling asleep. We love an…
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Pinnacles
Well, we made it back from camping in one piece. Aside from the oppression of bugs and heat, I’m convinced that you need more than one night for a proper “reset” (without the former of course). Regardless, we had a good time and it was an experience we’ll remember… The scenery was dramatic and the…
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The Calm
There is a sort of surreal quietness to our daily lives these days. I mean, once you remove the inherent stress of working jobs, financial obligations and family; those will always be around. I mean, the underlying rhythm of life as it stands at the moment. We enjoy (and are even spoiled) by the weather…
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Camping
Tomorrow we will be driving down to Pinnacles National Park to go camping. We both love to be in the outdoors, but have not made the time to really take time off to enjoy camping more than a couple of times since we were married in 2007. It’s really a great way for us both…
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Being loved
It’s a hot afternoon. Conrad and I have been sorting though boxes in the garage, getting rid of half of the carefully wrapped kitchenware and sorting through books. Mom came outside to paint her toenails. I take a break with a cold beer and I sit next to her. Conrad joins us for a little…
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A lesson learned
Don’t stress and don’t force things It is the least dramatic context that I could have re-learned this lesson: selling furniture. I admit, there is an element of pride in the whole mix. “How can you not like my stuff? The things we carefully chose and paid a lot of money for?” I felt rejected…
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Garage sale update
Truth be told, it got a little overwhelming this weekend. I worked myself to exhaustion again, and a few indecisive buyers and unclear purchases got to us. I had a few very early work days, with lots on my plate and wholehearted investment, and when I get a moment of respire I realize I am…
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What If
I’ve never thought of myself as necessarily insecure. I’ve rarely second-guessed myself in my adult life, even if my choices have sometimes ended negatively. If they do, I try to roll with it and learn from my own mistakes. But recently, my mind has been mired down with thoughts of “what if”. I’ve let them…
