We drove 17 km up in the wilderness to visit a friend. We sat down with a glass of water each, and talked. He used to intimidate me. A lot of important and well put together people used to intimidate me. I never showed it, but I always thought there is something I am missing, I’m not aware of, I’m not doing right. Almost all women wear very high-heels, makeup, sexy skits and younger men compete in fashion with them. But something changed over the last 10 years. I am comfortable in being different, casual, friendly and always hopeful for intelligent conversations. Confidence has a new meaning to me. I am not chasing the rhythm of others, my rhythm is perfectly fine.
The man we visited asked “so, do you plan to have kids?”. Conrad and I looked at each others and smiled: “Yes. One of the main reasons for our move is that we want to adopt from Romania”. (Yes. I did work back in the States. Yes, I had a great job which I loved. Yes, I am a US citizen. No, I am not getting a job here; we own our own business.)
It was a good visit. There was room for some transparency and time to discuss.
For the last two weeks we listened, watched, visited, and made some progress. We spent a buttload of money so far, getting comfortable in our home, met great people, in the most unexpected circumstances and very serendipitous.
The odd part is that I expected all the hardship and more. I knew what I was getting myself into, and there was a part in me that hoped some things would be easier. And some really were. Some were harder, mainly because I try too hard. A quote about success rings true: “success is not about working harder but about working smarter”.
We shall start taking pre-orders. The meeting with the accountant, which moved impromptu to La Tribunal over Proseco and a platter of cheese, was successful even though we only made some decisions and talked. It put my mind at ease.
All in all, besides the Belief which fuels us along Passion, I think Humor is the best next thing. I can’t boast it comes to me naturally, but I reap it’s benefits and I welcome it. I may finally learn to initiate it and take things lightly.
I can’t leave it all to Conrad.