Cathartic journaling of an adoptive mom.
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California bound
California bound for the winter. 2.5 Months!
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4 on
“Choosing not to shame, or instruct, or correct, but rather observe, delight in, and love your child with no strings attached is as active-parenting as it gets.”
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Good cop bad cop
My level of comfort going with Jackie to the doctor has increased. I feel like I belong. I am her advocate, comforter, her mom, and I trust her and she trusts me.
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Sick days
From a mild cough to keeping her home to rest better during the day, it progressed to the craziest Symptoms: fever and shivers, nausea, muscle pain, difficulty breathing, crankiness … and I realize how little we know, how helpless I feel, how on edge we ca get when sleep deprived.
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Retrospect
I went to a Sting concert last night. It was groovy. I’m not the concert going type. I never was. But last night was cool. I was wearing one of my Apple earring pairs, a gift from a former Apple colleague. My unusual earring are conversation starters. Conrad got to tell someone that I actually…
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Our diva turned 4
Tonight we were trying to help her answer the “How old are you?” question in english, without getting silly or freeze. Then I asked her about her name to which she answered in clear crisp english: “My name is Jackie!” and it took me by surprise. We never taught her this. Then I kept going:…
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Talk slowly. Explain. Repeat.
My dad is the meticulous talker. As a teenager it drove me crazy. But he built the best foundation for me as a kid. He was the affirmer. The patient explainer. The repeater.
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One year
It has been easier than I had expected. It always is in retrospect. But truly, the color, the joy, the thousand decibels of giggles they paint the picture of parenting in full splendor.
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Walk by faith
I mentioned that through prayer I let go, while putting my heart who into it. It’s a paradox, I know.
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Magnetism
Over the course of a lifetime we are fortunate enough to meet amazing people, fascinating and beautiful, smart, and engaging, in one word: attractive. But even this word has been altered, tainted I feel. Magnetism in Romanian is not similarly loaded.
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Prayer-2
I don’t pray enough. There are seasons and seasons. When I feel powerless, vulnerable actually, afraid, when I’m needy, that’s when prayer pours out of me like a mountain spring: fresh, abundant, unfiltered, unabridged.
