Month: October 2017
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Good cop bad cop
My level of comfort going with Jackie to the doctor has increased. I feel like I belong. I am her advocate, comforter, her mom, and I trust her and she trusts me.
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Sick days
From a mild cough to keeping her home to rest better during the day, it progressed to the craziest Symptoms: fever and shivers, nausea, muscle pain, difficulty breathing, crankiness … and I realize how little we know, how helpless I feel, how on edge we ca get when sleep deprived.
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Retrospect
I went to a Sting concert last night. It was groovy. I’m not the concert going type. I never was. But last night was cool. I was wearing one of my Apple earring pairs, a gift from a former Apple colleague. My unusual earring are conversation starters. Conrad got to tell someone that I actually…
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Our diva turned 4
Tonight we were trying to help her answer the “How old are you?” question in english, without getting silly or freeze. Then I asked her about her name to which she answered in clear crisp english: “My name is Jackie!” and it took me by surprise. We never taught her this. Then I kept going:…
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Talk slowly. Explain. Repeat.
My dad is the meticulous talker. As a teenager it drove me crazy. But he built the best foundation for me as a kid. He was the affirmer. The patient explainer. The repeater.
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One year
It has been easier than I had expected. It always is in retrospect. But truly, the color, the joy, the thousand decibels of giggles they paint the picture of parenting in full splendor.
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Walk by faith
I mentioned that through prayer I let go, while putting my heart who into it. It’s a paradox, I know.
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Magnetism
Over the course of a lifetime we are fortunate enough to meet amazing people, fascinating and beautiful, smart, and engaging, in one word: attractive. But even this word has been altered, tainted I feel. Magnetism in Romanian is not similarly loaded.
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Prayer-2
I don’t pray enough. There are seasons and seasons. When I feel powerless, vulnerable actually, afraid, when I’m needy, that’s when prayer pours out of me like a mountain spring: fresh, abundant, unfiltered, unabridged.
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Cancer awareness month
Cancer makes people uncomfortable. Talking about cancer makes people uncomfortable. Yet at this point there are more people who know someone personally who fought with cancer than ever before.