We’ve been spending ourselves on daily responsibilities, on one hand, closing accounts and selling stuff, and on the other, building relationships with great clients in California, clients that we’ll continue to work with from Cluj. So Conrad is hard at work in Altmannhaus, graciously immersing me to be more hands-on into the business. At the same time I am purposefully developing my successors, strengthening the new leaders by sharing my passion and vision for the team I currently lead. Basically we make art every day through each interaction, communication or design creation.
I have one concern: That I’ll run out of energy and my heart will be more willing than my physical, mental or emotional strength. At times I believe this fear is unfounded, and yet there it is. I’m still learning to pace myself and make time to play. There are days when I wish I was not so visible. I feel that way occasionally, especially since I became a Lead.
As for being a leader, Apple only brought out the best in me, which is not by any means little, empowered and validated me, polished and helped me be more aware and awake. I have built amazing relationships and made lifetime friends. The upcoming departure saddens me, and I wonder if I will ever have such a great team to lead. I simply can’t bear the thought of burying my gifts and talents. I thrive on developing others, inspiring, bringing out the best in them. I thrive on creating, teaching and tackling technology. I also love writing and public speaking. Working alongside with Conrad is thrilling and fulfilling, but I feel compelled to do so much more. With three other women here in the Valley, we are planning a conference in Europe next Spring. I have done this 5 years ago, and I have never felt more alive and completely exhausted than I did then. It will be a full year.