Today I felt the most encouraged since I arrived. We went sledding and I was finally warm and dry enough for a longer period of time. And the view on the hill near our home is breathtaking.
The reality is that I worry too much. The more time I spend in the city, the darker it gets. I wish I was more assertive and more insensitive – but I feel and sense a lot. And the more heightened my senses are, the powerless I feel. I can clearly see the burdens I carry, and yet at times I simply can’t shake them off. After a good rest and a cup of coffee I see clearer. The challenge is to arrange our days around other people who are chronically late or plans change. Once we make decisions that are good for us off-the-bat, the unexpected doesn’t rattle us.
I also decided to show up and spend time with people that I like. It was a treat to reconnect with old friends in a lot of different circumstances. We talked about life, their life and ours, adoption, about foster-adopt, about speeding up the process, and most importantly about doing things right and cut no corner so we don’t have to backtrack. Conrad and I had a few days of wonderful time together, reading, talking, playing, connecting and having fun. God is good.
