I don’t think i have any other control over how i feel, other than letting go.
It is quite the challenge to let go, let go of our expectations, past hurts, distrust, exhaustion, fears, habits… the list could go on and on.
I felt trapped in a desert of loneliness. So bizarre. I blame the endless winter. I brushed 4 inches of snow off the car early this morning. The city is still white and frozen at the end of the day. When my thirst of companionship wasn’t quenched after two exciting social dinners, I realized the issue is in me. Trying to organize, motivate, initiate to no avail is a trap. My role-model had been king David, and his friendships happened uniquely. But when he talked with God he didn’t rely on likeminded friends. He didn’t seek encouragement laterally, but his eyes were focused upwards. Just a fresh perspective. I let go of my growing bitterness. it dissipated. overnight. And then any reconnection afterwards came and felt as a gift.
